No one really told the ear doctor and I how intense it is to have a new born baby. Or maybe people tried to tell us what it was like, but we didn't really get it. Because, to tell you the truth, it's really hard to describe just what it's like to have a new baby. I don't think I could totally capture how hard/awesome/totally engrossing the experience has been.
Last night I was at a breaking point. I sat on my bed at 9 pm, nursing my little baby while tears streamed down my face. The very thought of attempting another night of feeding him ever hour and a half literally broke my spirit.
My husband and in-laws rose to the challenge. I seriously don't know how people do this on their own...I have an amazing army ready to help lift me up when I think I can't do it.
I pumped a bottle of milk, moved his bassinet out of our room and my mother-in-law enabled the ear doctor and i to sleep straight from 1:30 am until 6 am.
It was glorious. I woke up happier than I've been in the last 2 weeks.
I now know the perfect way to help a new mom...and I really wish I'd had this kind of perspective when I went out to "help" my little sister after she'd had her babies. I could have been so much better had I just known what to do!